Zero or One
Should life be evaluated based on success or failure? What
about the learning that we get through our journey to achieve something? As shown
in the movie 12th Fail, an aspirant has to start from scratch
when he fails to make it to the Holy PDF or final list of selections, no matter
how many rounds he clears, shows how society evaluates one’s success by omitting
the grey areas.
As an
aspirant myself, I’ve seen this journey at a very close level. It appeared for UPSC
ESE three times along with my full-time Master’s Degree that I was pursuing
then, it was too difficult to balance the requirements of the academic life
with the demands of the preparation. Like a Yogi doing Tapasya by being cut off
from the world, to reach the stage of salvation, I cut myself off from any
social activity. I stayed in the hostel all alone when everybody had left for
their homes during festivals. Time was limited to conquer the vast syllabus all
by myself. It was no doubt, a humungous task. I took the exams in a different
city from where I was living, three times and failed all three times. The
reason that motivated me to take one more attempt was my increased performance.
They said it right that UPSC is like a blackhole that drags one to itself
addictively.
Today,
when I look back at my journey, I am content that I took that path instead of
waiting for the perfect moment of preparation. I have no regrets about not
trying. Many of my friends just imagined it in their minds and waited for the right
moment to appear for the exam which never came. This journey taught me a lot of
patience and resilience to pick myself up after a failure. I develop an insight
into not labeling any failure as zero but as a learning experience of life. If
we don’t try, we will never learn. Our learning should never stop based on the
result but continue throughout life.
With
this post, I conclude #BlogchatterA2Z 2024 amidst the flu from which I am still
recovering. I have many times got this feeling of giving up but I just try to
stick to the process and give my effort in chucks and the result is all in
front of you. I remember having finished this challenge last year amidst a very
hectic schedule, this time my schedule is a little flexible. If I could do then,
why can’t I do it this time?
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Swati
Sarangi
30.04.2024
P.S: This post is a part of #BlogChatterA2Z 2024Challenge for Alphabet ‘Z’