Transient Connections in dynamic world
PART
1
We encounter many people in our lives who are meant to
stay for a short period of time irrespective of the promises they make. This
often makes us question certain aspects of our life and search for many
oblivious reasons behind their short presence. Every one of us have experienced
this phase.
Riya, a girl from a modern society faced a heartbreak
which had made her question the existence of the relationship she had with a
guy named Naman. Though this relationship was destined for 2 years and virtual
yet it was so strong enough to make her feelings numb for couple of years. Even
music could not heal her, neither her art. Finally, she took the route of
spiritualism to heal her wound and found answers to her questions.
How
did it all start?
Naman, tall, handsome and qualified guy’s profile was
shortlisted by Riya from an online matrimonial website. That guy instantly
showed interest towards her and they started texting each other through a
social media. In no time, they exchanged their whatsapp number which is common
now-a-days. Riya informed about this guy to her parents and they all showed a
green signal to it and wanted to have a formal meeting to discuss about the
marriage proceedings.
This all happened within the first month of their
interaction. Naman flew to Riya’s place to meet her family. He was excited as
well as nervous because Riya was financially more stable than him and she
belonged to a much more reputed family than him. It was all like a dream for
Riya to meet a qualified partner like Naman who would make her happy throughout
her life. She had butterflies in her stomach whenever she thought of Naman, she
had fallen for him literally. She had already started thinking about moving
ahead with him. On meeting Naman for the
first time, she saw a spark in his eyes. That was an instant connection. They
had a formal talk and it was approved by both the families.
They started
talking virtually for about 10 months, after which they decided to get engaged
to each other. But Riya did not know about the ordeal that was associated with
the connection. Soon after they got engaged, corona hit hard followed by strict
lockdown. Still both of them were in contact virtually. Riya was slowly getting
pressure from professional front. Her job was at stake. She informed everything
she was going thorough to Naman in a hope that he would understand her. But it
was quite different. Eventually she got fired from the job. When Naman got to
know about it, he behaved in a different manner. The bond they initially shared
started weakening. Perhaps, Naman had found someone more suitable than Riya from
his surroundings. Riya started contemplating about her decision. She also got pressurized
to get married to Naman from her own family as they were already engaged. Naman
was not serious for marriage, as he did not provide any date for marriage when
asked by her. For him, it was just a marriage and a casual engagement, nothing
beyond that. For Riya, It was about her emotions and values that’s there inside
her heart. She was broken and confused about her life. Finally, she made it
clear that she would not move forward with Naman because there were few
mysteries which got unfolded in the entire story. Money was important factor behind
the fake love that Naman showed towards her. Naman had already got into an
affair during the lockdown which he hid to her. Naman had attraction towards
other girls as well. But in reality, the one who loves the most gets hurt the
most. It was for Riya to face the consequences.
How
she dealt with the heartbreak?
The second lockdown was a nightmare for her. It not
only wiped away many people and relations form the world but also snatched her
grandmother from her. The news of demise of her grandmother and the agony of
not seeing her for the last moment made her go into the swirl of depression.
Each night seemed to be more painful and unbearable for her. She didn’t know
how many sleepless nights she had spent and how many more left to spend. She
could use all her abilities to come out of this phase. But, it was all in vain.
Even her own therapy like music and art could not help her out. Music was
always associated with Naman and those memories would come alive when she used to
sing or listen to any music. Now she had stopped believing in a feeling called “love”.
Finally, she took the help of medication. It was a
trial and error phase of the doctors. The journey of 5mg to 650 mg of the
medication would exaggerate the feeling of sleepiness and nausea. But did she
have any other option? Perhaps, No. She mustered her courage and started rising
up after recovering from COVID and dengue form few months. She started looking
for other proposals for marriage because age was also racing and for a girl,
staying bachelor was a difficult situation. And when there is a hope, anything
is possible.
She
could able to beat her depression through getting engaged in lots of activities
altogether. She joined an online course to upgrade her skill as well as she
started practicing meditation and journaling on a regular basis. She started
singing again and learnt Mandala painting and drew again. It was all therapeutic.
Stay
tuned for PART 2
SWETA
SARANGI
20.07.2023
