28 Feb 2024

#495 Remembering Kuni Jeje

 Remembering Kuni Jeje

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Recently my memory took me back to the days when Kuni Jeje was a part of it. Before I can write more about him, I’ve got to introduce Kuni Jeje to my readers. In Odia, my mother tongue, Kuni means small/young, Paternal grandfather is regarded as Jeje (pronounced as JJ). So, Kuni Jeje was my Paternal grandfather’s younger brother, my father’s paternal uncle. So, if you combine all the logic of the relationship and their way of addressing, Jeje’s younger brother was whom we referred to as Kuni Jeje.

Kuni Jeje lived in a village which was known as Ramakrishna Pur, located in Cuttack district of Odisha, India while I was raised in a joint family in Bhubaneswar, Odisha, India. He would often visit us with packets of cream biscuits, and savory eatables that we would not generally get to eat along with the harvest from our farms in the village. He would then take us, me and my twin sister, on a walk to nearby grocery stores containing a variety of biscuits, toffees, chocolates, and whatnot. I remember having given my choice to buy Milk Bikis when asked by him and some orange candies while restricting my other desire to buy the entire stock of biscuits in fear of being scolded by my parents. He showered his love, care, and affection on us and we reciprocated it by playing, talking, and narrating activities of the day.

We moved to a different state and could meet him once a year when we would visit Bhubaneswar during our vacation. We would make sure to visit our village, Ramakrishna Pur or if our schedule didn’t permit us to visit our village, Kuni Jeje would visit us with infinite love, affection, and a bagful of our favorite eatables. He attended all the important events in our family. He was present at my engagement and wedding to shower his blessings. The last time I saw him was at my sister’s wedding, but he was frail and needed support to walk. Due to old age, he suffered from Parkinson’s disease and lost his ability to recognize people. We would go to him and make him remember us, to which he would simply smile and acknowledge. I later came to know that he was losing his vision slowly.

I got the news of his demise last year and it was because he fell unconsciously hitting himself when going out to the washroom at night. He would generally call someone to help him with walking, but he didn’t do that night, didn’t know if it was death’s call for him. The last few years of his life were full of health issues, but he faced them boldly and his wish to live never weakened his physical strength. I didn’t get many times to spend with him, but whatever moments I have shared with him, will always stay immortal in my memory, and when I close my eyes to remember him, all I can see is his smiling face.

 

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Swati Sarangi

28.02.2024

23 Feb 2024

#494 Age is just a number

 Age is just a number

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He says she’s growing older,

And they say so,

Inevitably so are the speakers,

Age is just a number,

You can do wonders,

As long as you’re wide awake

From the deepest slumber.

 

Does it even matter what they say?

If all your senses can help you

In achieving your life’s purpose,

There’s no point counting your days

In the form of age in years

Don’t forget, you are drawn closer

To your deathbed with the

Passage of each day.

 

You can’t stop from growing old,

From letting your age run,

How does it matter what they say?

Aren’t those taunts serving as

Reminders to love yourself a little more,

No matter how old you’ve turned up,

As if for men, their age reverses with years.

 

If sixteen was sweet for them,

So is turning forty, for you,

Or even sixty, for that matter,

With each decade, you’ll discover,

A newer and wiser version of you,

Facing the world with years of experience

And audacity which you might feel,

Within you, that never existed before.

 

Age is just a number,

Number of years of your presence; mortal,

An amalgamation of varied experiences gathered,

Over different situations or circumstances,

And you’ve seen and felt it all,

Not letting your age run isn’t in your control,

Until the day when that

Number will just linger.

 

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Swati Sarangi

13.02.2024


12 Feb 2024

#493 Movie Review : 12th Fail

                                                 12th Fail 

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This movie is about a boy named Manoj Sharma, hailing from a small city in Madhya Pradesh, named Chambal (as shown in the movie), who aspires to be an IPS officer, despite having failed in 12th class. This wish of becoming an IPS officer started forming a serious goal in Manoj’s mind when he met an IPS officer during his 12th board exam who prevented the malpractices done during the exam, because of which the entire batch failed and had to appear in the exam again next year. When he met DSP officer Dushyant Singh and asked him how to be an officer like him, he said that he had to leave the habit of cheating. The next year, during the 12th board exam, when the entire class cheated and passed the exam with the first division, Manoj wrote the exam with honesty and passed with a 3rd division. Later, with the same honesty he completed his graduation in Hindi literature and goes to a higher city with the hope and all savings of his grandmother to get guidance through coaching to prepare for MPPSC. On the way, all his money and belongings got robbed by the fellow passenger and he reached his destination empty-handed.

On reaching Bhopal, he found out that the coaching centers were planning to close because of cancellation of the exam. As per the saying, “Where there’s a will, there’s a way”, he met an UPSC aspirant on the lunch table who was planning to go to Delhi to get the coaching. He followed him to Delhi, somehow managed to get the accommodation by doing several odd jobs like cleaning toilets, dusting the books and shelves in the library. Through his savings, he joined a reputed coaching center, for the preparation of the Mains, after clearing Prelims through self-preparation in his first attempt. He met Shraddha Joshi on her day of admission to the institute when Shraddha got impressed by Manoj’s performance of clearing Prelims through self-preparation. UPSC preparation tested his patience when he failed in prelims in his next attempt and his friends blamed Shraddha to be the reason behind his failure. The movie ends with a happy note when Manoj cracks the exam by beating all odds and Shraddha also becomes a PCS officer.

I watched this movie on the New Year’s Eve and I am happy that I cancelled all my plans to go out to witness the New Year’s countdown as it was -240C outside.  I loved the character of “Gauri Bhaiya” who was shown helping Manoj selflessly during his last attempt, in all possible ways he could. In this world of casual dating, hookups and breakups, all ambitious men deserve a partner like Shradhha Joshi and vice versa, who support and respect each other’s goals. Having written ESE a couple of times in the past, this movie reminded me of my UPSC preparation days and instilled similar emotions like anxiety, despair, determination, etc. Vikrant Massey, in the lead role, has just nailed it and so is Medha Shankar as a debutant actress. It was great to know that the “Bolo Na” song has been sung by Medha who has also been trained in Indian classical vocal. Such a multi-talented personality she has. From various interviews of Manoj Shama and Shraddha Joshi, I found this couple very mature, humble, and interactive. They words leave such a sense of familiarity that one would feel to have met them in real life.

The movie very beautifully portrays every nuance of the struggle of Manoj Sharma without distracting from the main storyline. Such stories in movies without the display of vulgarity should be encouraged and seen as an inspiration. However, I don’t glorify the idea of relying solely on such a competitive exam like UPSC which comes within 10th rank of most challenging exams in the world, for success. One should weigh his decision based on the best and worst-case scenarios.

I would rate 9.8/10 to this movie and can recommend anyone to watch it. I might watch it again later.

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Swati Sarangi

11.02.2024

10 Feb 2024

#492 The best gift that I've received

 The best gift that I’ve received

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Life has been great for me, so far, that’s what I can write when I try to reflect on my life through this article. Of course, like everyone’s life, my life has never been devoid of failures, setbacks, disappointments, dissatisfaction, or heartbreaks on professional grounds. Things could’ve been done differently or looked at from a noble perspective (that’s easier said than done), when I am trying to analyze my past, at this point. That’s when I have more dots, from the past, to connect with, in the present time, doesn’t it become a little easier to evaluate my actions?

Life has been kind enough to bestow a lot of gifts on me but let me not forget that each gift came with a certain price of either my own or my family. The best gift that I’ve received is my precious childhood. My father made a crucial decision at the crossroads of his life to move to a faraway place from the comfort of his hometown. I remember that day very clearly, when he got an offer to move to Kanpur, leaving behind his beloved demised maternal grandmother. When the entire family was soaked in the grief of this irreparable loss, he made a huge sacrifice for us, to move to a faraway place, all alone. In earlier years of his office, he battled with dirty office politics of every day, and health issues arising because of that and supported us selflessly. He took us to Kanpur a year after his move, where we started our primary education.

There are several advantages of being able to be brought up in a campus environment of an educational institution and I am lucky to have felt the benefits of that. First, safety is the primary reason. The campus environment was safe for us to explore or cycle. I completed my education till 12th grade inside the campus and didn’t have to face any issues of safety. Second, the campus was the home to people from diverse cultures. Being an institution at the all-India level, it attracted people from different states, backgrounds, or cultures. My friends, in school, were from different states and it created an awareness and interest to know their culture. Knowledge/Awareness always drives away biases, I feel. In the later years of my life, I was able to befriend people from different states without any judgment or preconceived notions. Third, I got immense motivation from this place and its people who were highly qualified yet humble about their achievements. This pushed me to perform well in academics and I derived immense pleasure in spending time exploring reading and writing. I was always inspired by my peer groups at school who provided an environment for healthy competition. There is no growth without competition. Fourth, I started dreaming of being a part of it and put all my efforts into action. Dreams are important parts of life that drive one towards excellence. In the process of pursuing those dreams, I became sincere and disciplined. Fifth, access to technology. I am talking about the time from 2005-2011, we had access to a landline connection for the internet at home and a desktop computer. I started taking help for academics from various online forums like yahooanswers, goiit, 9math and received useful information. I also spent time playing and exploring different gaming websites like miniclip.

My schools on campus provided enough opportunities to explore other co-curricular activities along with academics like singing, painting, writing, sports, elocution, etc. I was good at academics and developed a keen interest in painting, singing, and writing. It wouldn’t have been possible without the support of my parents. My father always encouraged me to participate in various competitions and Olympiads and got study material for preparation while my mother took all care not to distract us from academics. She would prepare meals for us, provide extra care during exams, and celebrate each win. I have had wonderful discussions with my father ranging from history to science technologies, career choices, etc.

I believe in destiny now which I didn’t, as a child because I always got favorable results whenever I put sincere efforts until my college days or life after that. It’s when life taught me that it’s not linear, it’s not a bed of roses, not every effort of mine will yield results and I should have the courage to accept whatever it brings on my plate. Life taught me that it will throw curveballs toward me to test my patience and I must face these curveballs boldly for my betterment. I have failed many times in the past but at this point in my life, when I look back, I don’t have any regrets for the chances I took because I tried and failed. I would have failed anyway, had I not taken any chances. I didn’t run away from the battlefield like a coward. I also learned that regret for not trying is heavier than failing. I don’t get demotivated by failures so easily and I make sure to try once more.

I will forever be grateful for these wonderful and glorious memories of my childhood and the people whom I met during this phase of my life as it has helped me to be the person that I am today. My parents not only nurtured my aspirations but ingrained a lot of values in me. They provided me with a thought process to widen my vision and dream. In my opinion, a well-lived life is a life when you can’t recall bad experiences even though there could be many. My heart brims with nothing but a sense of gratitude when I traverse the lanes of my bygone days. Even though half of my dreams remain unfulfilled today as destiny has different plans for me, I am very hopeful about the countless opportunities that life may offer in the future and I am assured of the fact that no effort ever goes in vain. It’s time to end my chains of thoughts here and keep some moments of my childhood to revisit later.

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Swati Sarangi

09.02.2024   

P.S: This post is a part of #WriteAPageADay2024 #WAPAD2024 written under the prompt “The best gift that you've received”.

3 Feb 2024

#491 Grateful for this Nordic view

Grateful for this Nordic view

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I’m grateful for this Nordic view,

Oh! I shall always be,

As I start my day by sipping

A cup of herbal tea,

By the window of the living room,

Of the building high-rise,

When I look outside,

I only find beauty all around,

As if nature has

Sprinkled some icing sugar

On the dark and bare streets,

The drizzle of snow, so light

Just like feathers floating ceaselessly

Caressing the trees when encountered,

Can’t take my eyes off those

Snow-covered streets when glimmer

Under the faint moonlight.

 

I’m grateful for this Nordic view,

Oh! I shall always be,

When I peep through my window,

To witness the sun going down

The horizon after painting the clear

Blue sky, with colours of elegance

The pinkish tint that the sky gets,

Resembling that of a lipstick,

Or taken from the color palette

Of a seasoned artist,

I enjoy this view as if it’s

The last view my eyes can

Get to store it as an eternal memory.

 

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Swati Sarangi 

03.02.2024


P.S: This post is a part of #WriteAPageADay2024 #WAPAD2024 written under the prompt “Write a poem inspired by the view from your window”.

 

#490 My activities on BlogChatter in 2023

 My activities on BlogChatter in 2023

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Ever since I stumbled upon this blogging platform, BlogChatter, I haven’t thought much about the topics to write on. It reminded me of my exhaustive writing habit in the past when I used to participate so actively in various competitions hosted on different blogging platforms. If you look at the post counts in my blog during 2016 and 2017, you will find it to be in 3 digits! It even makes me amazed at my ability to jot down my random thoughts to convey certain messages or ideas.

I started participating in activities of BlogChatter in Feb 2023 and it was on 6th Feb 2023 that I wrote an article on the prompt given in BlogChatter BlogHop. From then, my association with BlogChatter began. I have shared 32 blog posts within a year on that platform. Here’s my profile – Swati Sarangi. I completed some challenges like BlogChatterA2Z and WriteAPageADay and earned beautiful stickers. I received the TOP POST badge for some of my blog posts like On a bus ride home, Test of patience, etc. I contributed to the guest post - 5 ways to maximize your writing potential, which I had always wanted to do. Receiving comments and feedback from fellow writers, mentions about my writeups on different social media like Twitter and LinkedIn encouraged me to put more effort into writing along a full-time professional career.

As the title suggests, I’ve tried to summarize my activities on BlogChatter for the year 2023. I’ve enjoyed this journey with BlogChatter so far and would like to carry it forward.

 

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Swati Sarangi

02.02.2024

1 Feb 2024

#489 Under the magic spell of Ukulele

 Under The Magic Spell of Ukulele

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New Year Greetings to the readers!

[Why not? The excitement of New Year shouldn’t fade away at this point.]  

It’s the first day of the second month of this year and I am all set to put my foot on this task of writing 10k words before this month ends. I have been putting away my habit of writing for no particular reason, but I am glad that this initiative of Write A Page A Day by BlogChatter will wake my writing spirit up from a deep slumber. Writing is not just a process of typing my thoughts on the keyboard but it’s an act of introspecting my life and surroundings. It reminds me to pause, reflect, collect, and write.

I’ve been a strong believer in the Law of Attraction. Last year, around this time, I pasted some cut-outs on my journal linking to my wishes/goals in various spheres of my life. Out of those cut-outs, there was a light blue Ukulele, I was aspiring to learn to play it. Fast forward many months, I found out about Ukulele classes being held at different libraries in the Helsinki/Espoo area, that too for different levels, beginners, intermediate, and advanced. It was like “When the student is ready, the teacher appears” kind of moment for me. I, right away, decided to join the beginner’s classes. When I got this information, I had already missed some classes which made me a little anxious about the fear of missing out on my peers, but when I started attending the classes, I found the instructor, Sakari Heikka, super welcoming and friendly. Interestingly, there was a provision to burrow Ukuleles and use them in the class. All the students used these Ukuleles until they got their own.

My training began with the right posture to hold the Ukulele, and tune and strum it in the right way so that the Ukulele sounds perfectly. There were about 8-10 students in the class who were very enthusiastic about playing Ukulele. I made many friends through those classes, got to know them, and enjoyed learning Ukulele with them. We were taught the basic chords like C, Am, F, G, Dm, C#, etc, and provided chord sheets to follow. We were so enrapt in singing and playing along with the instructor that those 1-hour seemed like a few minutes. It has been so aptly said that “Music has no language or religion.” It touched all of our hearts.

In the Beginner’s class at Lippulaiva Library, I attended around 12 classes, and I must never forget to thank the instructor for his patience in teaching the techniques to an absolute beginner like me. He was also very regular in sharing the resources of each class so that we could practice at home. I  experimented with the chords that I learned with Ukulele for playing many Bollywood or devotional songs. This helped me to convert a wish of mine, to create an Instagram Channel dedicated to my recordings, into reality. I started recording my songs on the Ukulele and published them on my Instagram Channel – Swar Symphony. I could explore another library; Lippulaiva Library, because of these classes. Another wish of mine, to be able to perform in a live concert, came true, when we were invited to perform in a Christmas Concert at Sello Library on 11.12.2023. The videos can be found on my Instagram Channel – Swar Symphony. We played Ukulele on popular Christmas songs, both Finnish and English. It was a great experience.

I have always wished to adopt playing the Ukulele as my hobby to accompany my singing but as a beginner, I was looking for the right direction to get started. Luckily, those classes helped me sail through the basics of Ukulele playing without getting distracted. Under the magic spell of the Ukulele, not only I could make those dark and depressive winter days of Finland exciting, but I also published as many as 47 recordings on my Instagram channel within 3 months. It’s no less than a wonder for me. I hope to witness more such wonders in the future and let the Ukulele cast its magic spell on me!

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SWATI SARANGI

01.02.2024

P.S: This post is a part of #WriteAPageADay by BlogChatter and I’ve picked up the prompt “Hobbies you’re working on”.

22 Jan 2024

#488 Ho'oponono Technique

 

Ho’oponopono Technique

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We deal with many emotions in our day-to-day life. Those are happiness, anger, sadness, resentment, guilt, excitement etc. Some emotions are positive whereas others are negative. Often negative emotions make us feel more anxious and heavy inside. There comes the role of healing. Healing emotional wellbeing is very importance to have a healthy mind and soul. It also helps us to create a clear vision. This practice aims to heal relationships, resolve conflicts, and bring about a sense of inner peace.

There are many techniques used for the purpose of healing. I am going to share one of the simplest Hawaiian technique for healing mind and soul. It consists of four steps.

1-Repentance: I AM SORRY

2-Forgiveness: PLEASE FORGIVE ME

3- Gratitude: THANK YOU

4-Love: I LOVE YOU

This ritual should be performed daily in the morning and evening for 11 or 108 times for optimal result.

I am sharing out my experience after practicing it regularly for consecutive 7 days.

1-I am feeling lighter and calmer.

2-I am no more having guilt in me.

3-I am not resentful about anything.

I hope that readers would get benefitted by doing this ritual for consecutive days. Please share your experience in comment section. 

 

SWETA SARANGI
21-1-2024


#487 Transient connections in dynamic world

 

Transient connections in dynamic world

PART-2

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Read PART 1: https://creative-constellation.blogspot.com/2023/07/476-transient-connections-in-dynamic.html

Years have passed but the memories of Naman which Riya had stored in her brain had never faded exponentially. After two years, while browsing social media, Riya found a profile picture in which Naman was there with another girl. Later, when going into the profile, to see the exact thing, she found that Naman was married to someone from his surrounding who was elder than him in age and did not belong to his caste as well. Riya got shocked to find that whatever he told his criteria to Riya for marriage, did not match his present situation. She was pretty sure that she was being cheated by him in real sense. In order to vent out her feeling she started journaling her feelings in form of a letter she wrote.

To the Cheater, (Here cheater is indicated to Naman)

I don’t know whether you would read this article or not. I thank you for leaving my side in the worst phase of my life because I got to know the real version of you then. Some people stay in one’s side when things are merely perfect and leave when things fall apart. You did the same and proved that you are no different than those “some people” who wanted to bring a positive change to my life ironically. I did not like the way you had ghosted me without clarifying the reason. Though I had tried to contact you several times to sort out the issue but everything was in vain. The sudden disappearance of you like a chemical reactant giving out the product was unpredictable for me. The last words of our conversation is still intact to my brain that it’s better to stay single than to marry. And see, what you did. To complete your motive, you searched someone from your surrounding and get hitched as quickly as possible as if what I did to you were fruitless. The interesting part is that the that girl neither satisfies your criteria (that you had described me) nor your family. Even it’s the game of upper age as well. It had wowed me the moment your picture with her in one of the social media platforms flashed before my eyes. It hurt me the moment I saw both of you because I felt the commitments that you had made to me are being fulfilled with her. I know that she is more qualified, but does that make one change the partner soon. If this is the case, then you would be keep on changing partners for life and I am pretty sure that will happen.

Somewhere in my heart, I fell a stone has been removed. I feel free now because I wanted to go back to sort things out and always wanted to think that whatever has happened it was because of my fault. You know, it’s very difficult to stay with a regret. But, see god has saved me again by showing me the true side. Sometimes past moments do flash in my eyes. But, I have also learned to move on. I agree to the fact that, I learned it a bit late.

Being a writer, I like to express my emotions through my words. That’s what I am doing right now. I am not sure whether the words would reach to you in anyway. But I congratulate you for whatever you have done in your personal and professional front. May you feel the same agony; I have experienced because of you. I know that there is something called Karma and It is very powerful. I just want you to see my comeback in my area soon. May be then you would realise what a gem you have lost in your life. Till then, enjoy your phony world.

RIYA

 

Now, it’s up to readers to think that was it right for Naman to leave Riya because he found someone more suitable than her from his surrounding? Was love of Riya not enough for him?

 Stay tuned for part 3


SWETA SARANGI

21-01-2024

 


30 Nov 2023

#486 What a lazy day looks like to me

 What a lazy day looks like to me

This post is a part of Blogchatter Blog Hop

Before I start writing anything, I would first like to thank the team of BlogChatter for coming up with a lot of innovative prompts with the help of which I can conquer my writing block. From this week’s #BlogChatterBlogHop, I have selected the prompt “A blogger on a lazy day” for mainly two reasons; First, I qualify to consider myself a blogger after blogging for a decade. Second, I’ve been idling around for some time recently, just being cozied up in my cocoon during these snowy Nordic winter days. I want to slow down a bit and enjoy this process of my existence and evolution as my life turned extremely hectic a few months ago.   

         

          Picking up a day from one of my recent lazy days, I usually get up between 7:30 am and 8 am as it’s winter here in Finland and the sun rises around 8:40 am and before that, it’s pitch-dark black all around. So, I can proudly say that I wake up before sunrise or can I call it a Finnish Brahma Muhurta? Jokes apart! So, for me, a lazy day essentially doesn’t exclude any work, but it includes moments to relax mentally by not worrying much about my career or future or giving time to activities that I enjoy doing. Note: A married woman’s life can’t be devoid of any work, there’s always a schedule of household chores to perform. After performing some usual household chores like cleaning, setting up the rooms, and cooking, I sit on the armchair in my favorite spot in the drawing room with a cup of hot chocolate and a book. I also watch some movies or videos on YouTube for entertainment. I enjoy reading eBooks on my iPad where I also take notes. These days, I’ve been learning to play the Ukulele, so I’m trying my hand at Ukulele. I experiment with this stringed instrument which I have yearned to play for a long time. I try to get the chords for some Bollywood songs by hit and trials and note them down in a notebook which I refer to while recording the songs. I upload these recordings in my quite-recently-created-Instagram-Account; swar_symphony. I also collaborate with singers all over the world on Smule app. I feel that anything that one creates makes her happy and confident. I would sometimes surf for different contents or invitations for writing on different prompts to keep my blog alive.

 

          I wonder what life without any work would look like. After crossing the carefree stage of life that of a student, I am into the next phase of life; that’s married life which comes with some T&C and some responsibilities. I can never think of getting rid of the repetitive household chores as it has taught me to be more disciplined and gain control over the mind which always gives me numerous excuses not to do it. At the end of the day, I feel content to reflect on my day and feel grateful for my family and friends.

 

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Swati Sarangi

30.11.2023

27 Nov 2023

#485 On the bus ride home

 On the bus ride home

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This post is a part of Blogchatter Blog Hop 

On the bus ride home, I met an old woman. Even though she was a stranger to me, that brief meeting invoked a lot of familiar emotions within me.  

If I try to recall that incident more vividly, it was exactly a month ago, to be precise. Since the arrival of autumn, the days in Finland have shrunk to a few hours and the darkness engulfs the rest of the day quite early, as early as 4 pm. After shopping at a nearby mall, I boarded the bus to my home. After a few stops, I found an elderly lady boarding the bus. When she came closer to where I sat, I could observe her face more intensely, for a moment I felt that I met my grandmother whom I lost 2 years ago to COVID; same smile, complexion, and blue bulging-out nerves over her pale, speckled hands. Myriads of memories with her flashed in front of my eyes and my mind started an age-old conversation with her about the tales that were untold or left to be told after our last meeting.  I wanted to draw her attention towards me, but alas language was the barrier. Yes, I reminded myself that I was living in a foreign land.

I wouldn’t have let her go, simply like that, it was what my mind compelled me but then it countered with logic explaining the reality that I neither have time nor knowledge of the language to explain my emotions. Suddenly, an idea crossed my mind. I quickly took out my mobile and sought the help of the Google translator. I initiated the conversation by writing the sentences in English and letting the software translate them into Finnish. To understand her reply, the voice translator option came to my rescue. After an exchange of some 4-5 Finnish-English sentences, she prepared to leave as her destination arrived. I wondered if she would ever look back to bid me bye, but she didn’t! She just moved forward with the luggage she had by providing a subtle hint to me to move forward in my life too with whatever responsibilities I have right now in my life.

For her, I was just another stranger/foreigner she met randomly, or she might probably never recall me but for me, she was like a bridge between my past and present. I felt as if the bus was the time machine that dragged me to wonderful and fond memories of my past. I wished she had looked back once to wave me the last goodbye!

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26.11.2023

P.S.: I dedicate this article to my late paternal grandmother with whom I had a wonderful connection. She left for heavenly abode in 2021 due to COVID and none of our family members [as almost all of them tested COVID+ve] could bid her goodbye. I can never repay the debt that I owe to her. I pray that wherever her soul is, may she be at divine peace and merge into the ultimate spiritual consciousness! Om Shanti!

Edit: This post is a TOP BLOG at BlogChatter.

Top post on Blogchatter

24 Nov 2023

#484 To the years gone by

 

                                        To the years gone by

It is a summary of all the years that had passed by and the lessons learned.



2020: This year started with a piece of positive news i.e. engagement of my sister, followed by her marriage in March. The worst phase started with the announcement of the lockdown in India on March 20, 2020. This was completely a new scenario to handle both at the physical and mental levels. We were baffled by the news of the number of deaths increasing day by day and reaching its peak. My work was equally affected and I was contemplating each day how to overcome it. Each night was difficult to pass. The feeling of restlessness by not doing what I was supposed to do, had made me miserable. My PhD work, which was experimental, got affected severely. This year went into lockdown mode by staying at home and getting all kinds of bad news.

 

2021: This year was even worse than the previous year, I had never anticipated. I had to drop out of my PhD in mid-way. This was the most difficult decision I had ever made till now. My father was retired from his job and had to shift to his hometown. After we all reached our hometown, I got the news of the illness of my grandmother. She was hospitalized then. She went through surgery at the age of eighty and going through surgery was very painful as she was not given anesthesia during the operation. Then the second wave of Corona hit hard. All the family members were diagnosed as Corona positive. My father, my grandmother, and my elder uncle were rushed to hospital for treatment of corona due to their critical condition. They were not able to breathe properly. My father had surgery where there was the implantation of a pacemaker in his heart (which would regulate the heartbeat) just before the coronavirus hit him. We were broken both financially and mentally. We did not know that we had to go through a lot this year. One of my very personal life decisions turned out to be not favorable. Soon, after a few days, we were relieved because my uncle and father both returned home safely from the coronal shelter. We were waiting for my grandmother, but alas she never came back. It was our misfortune that we could not even bid her goodbye in her last breath. This was a shock for our entire family. It was very difficult for me to process such miserable events just one after the other. I was jobless as well as hopeless. Everything seemed to be just blurred. There was no sign of a bright future.

Soon after I recovered from Corona, I was hit by dengue which lasted for about twenty days making me weak physically and mentally. I had no option except to suffer, suffer and suffer. I was eagerly waiting for some happenings in my life. I got a job nearby as I was not in a condition to relocate due to my poor condition of health. I continued working there for few months. I started regaining my trust and confidence once again.

 

2022: This year arrived with a few marriage proposals for me. I had in confusion to select which one would be best for me. I took help of my family members in making decision for my life partner as it was going to be an arranged marriage. Finally, after interacting with few proposals, I made my mind to marry the person. I had to leave my job because I had to shift to another city after my marriage. I started adjusting with the family. I made many changes within me to please the members of my husband’s family. But all were in vain. They were always into finding faults of mine. His mother whom I treated like my mother, never treated me as his daughter. She had issues with every little thing as she would compare her daughters with me which is completely wrong.  And I have never found my husband resolving any kind of family dispute. He preferred moving out of the place when any problem arrived. He was an escapist by nature. The love and affection I have never received from him which he had always promised to give during his conversation before marriage. There were many promises made which were never fulfilled such as moving to the place where his company was located soon after marriage. I suffered a lot here. I had no freedom to do what I felt like doing. I was never appreciated for singing, painting or writing.

 

2023: I thought that with time, all these issues would resolve as time heals everything. But, it all depends on the mindset of the person. Marriage is a two-way process. It’s never the sacrifice of one who has withstood the institution called marriage. The cruelty and violence continued for a few months. In the meantime, I have got another job and started working virtually.

 

This year is going to end with a month in hand. I want to thank all those people who stood with me like a pillar of support, by not leaving my side. Things were extremely difficult but because of their support, I could navigate these years.

 

I want to scribble down the lessons that I have learned from all the struggles that I went through-

1.  You should never emotionally get attached to a person until you are very sure that he/ she is the right one.

2. You know your worth. No one has the ability to define your worth.

3. Love yourself as much as you can, then only you can love others in a real sense.

4. It doesn’t matter what others say. It’s your life and live it in your terms.

5. Truth always triumphs even if it takes longer time to show its true nature.

6. Time heals every pain. So, when you are in pain, give time to heal.

7. Nothing comes easy to anyone; it may seem easy but it’s always challenging.

8. Never leave side of your parents, they know you better than anyone else. Believe them and respect their decisions.

9. Hobbies are your real friends. Hobbies make you utilize your time better and provide you inner satisfaction.

10. When things don’t go the way you want, connect to the universe or god. You will definitely grow spiritually.

 

SWETA SARANGI

24-11-2023



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