The
defeated devil which once tried to master me
“Hahaha,
see how you’ve come under my grip so easily”, laughed the devil vehemently
creating a lasting impact.
“YOU
CAN NEVER BEAT ME”, shouted I at the top of my voice as a reply to the devil.
“When
I have been victorious in many such battles, winning the battle against you won’t
be that tough for me, do you understand it very well, girl?”, asked the devil
very confidently.
I replied him at an even more confident tone as, “I
am bigger than you and my existence definitely has a greater purpose, I believe
it strongly.”
The
above has been a figment of the conversation between me and the devil sitting
inside my mind. Of course, the devil has no physical existence. It has no
resemblance with anyone else in real life and I can never blame my surrounding or
people for anything. The devil is the result of some distorted thoughts which
might have born unknowingly out of failures, insecurities or unpleasant
experiences of my life. These conversations used to get so intense at times
that I feel my condition to be no different from a wanderer searching for his
destination.
I had to make a move as I could not tolerate the devil
winning the battle against me. I soon realised the reason behind my mood swing
was only the non-refinement of my though processes. Now the pertinent question
arises, how I controlled myriads of thoughts that kept affecting the course of
my actions.
I could do this through a series of actions listed
below-
1. I had to select something, be it a goal or an
emotion from past or any fear that would push me to get out of my bed early in
the morning as per my time table.
2. I chalked out a plan for my long term goal so that I
am not deviated from my goal.
3. I started noting down the way I spend each hour of my
day.
4. I started doing physical exercises at least for 30
minutes in a day.
5. I kept some time for my hobbies apart from professional
work that I’m engaged in.
6. I focussed on completing a task at a time before
moving on to the next.
7. I meditated on how I want to be and how my future
should be and chanted shlokas and mantras for peace of mind.
8. I limited my time on social media.
What
acted like a challenge for me yesterday, is no longer a challenge to me for
today. Everything that I have thought to achieve is completely achievable- a thought
that came after carrying out the above activities seriously.
I
learnt that it is the action that brings utmost satisfaction in life. After all,
whatever we’ve wished to achieve in our lives is always out of our comfort zone
as very aptly quoted by Joseph Campbell, “Where you stumble, there lies your
treasure.”
Swati Sarangi
19.05.2017