#123 Life so far

Life so far

For me life is like a roller coaster- a felling of happiness, relief, contentment, failure, sadness, excitement. Like a roller coaster, you get acquainted with some other feelings when you try to move further. Sometimes you find yourself out of the world and sometimes not. At a time, you can't predict whether you have enjoyed the ride fully or not. For me, life has not been that smooth rather a bit topsy-turvy. What you expect is not always proportional to what you get. Expectation proves to be an enemy of a person because it kills all joy and leaves you with regret sometimes. It shatters all hope. This is the worst ever feeling and similar to a broken glass which can never be fixed. But can one live without expectations in life?? No, not at all. Because whatever we do is always linked to some purposes and results. It may be theoretically possible to get rid of expectations but practically not.  Sometimes situations appear to be in favour and the next moment, it turns out to be weird which is beyond my level of imagination. A feeling of standing at an edge of the world is so profound to me that all other things, that provided me instant happiness once, are all worthless now. I am unable to observe the beauty of nature or listen to melody of birds. I am completely in a dark zone. Why is this world round, now I get its essence? I have reached the same place where I have started my journey once. Though progress is not that significant, yet it is a backbone of my hardship and labour.

This blog is an alternative way to express my views on anything. Through this blog, I try to lessen load of  my thoughts that get accumulated in my mind. It helps to conciliate me. It mitigates my anguish. Not everyone can decode your feelings because they don’t sail on the same boat as of yours. So, I find this blog to be the best place where I can scream aloud, hum my song and give a direction to my untamed words. A few years back, this blog turned up because of random scribbling and unpleasant experiences. It is not always necessary to prove your worth to the world. When things go wrong totally, no one is going to believe you. One can believe you only when you showcase your old form yes, the same energetic and charming form of yours.

I write for two reasons- to satisfy my hobby and fulfill my need. For the present moment,latter reason is more valid. Yes, I am in a need to comfort myself and rely on my abilities. It may seem awkward to others, but I become more conscious of myself when I write down. I am more expressive in writing. I can exactly decipher what I mean through writing.

There is always someone present by your side; he may not be visible to others. He prevents you from treading in wrong direction or taking any unfavourable steps. Discovery of this blog confirms so. As I write down more and more, I start to get filled up with positivity and negative thoughts get depleted gradually.  This is the magic of words and blogging. I just pray to almighty to shower his mercy upon me so that I may be able to come up with more positive energies and strength.

Here is a wonderful quotation

Good, better, best. Never let it rest. 'Til your good is better and your better is best. St. Jerome

Sweta Sarangi

22-5-2016