My Association with Sai
OM SHREE SAINATHAYA NAMAH
I am a small devotee of Saibaba who has
instilled faith in him since 2011. I had seen my mother worshipping him for
ages. Being a kid, I used to accompany my mother in the evening Aarti every
Thursday, but I developed little devotion then. For me, as a kid, prayer meant
duty and discipline which one had to perform daily without fail. This article
is dedicated to the incidences and miracles of Saibaba which have strengthened
my devotion and faith in him and made me believe in his existence in this
materialistic world.
Experience 1: Felt the presence of Saibaba in my
hostel room
It was back in the year 2018 when I joined IITK as a research scholar. One night during winter, I was feeling lonely in
my room. I was in search of someone with whom I could chit-chat and feel
relaxed. My wing was completely vacant then and I tried to contact one of my
best friends in the same hostel, but she had slept as it was around midnight. I
switched on my laptop and browsed meditation music on YouTube. To my surprise,
I found Saibaba’s picture in one of the videos in the thumbnail. Without
wasting a second, I clicked on that and started doing meditation by closing my
eyes. That chanting of Saibaba’s name had a soothing effect on my brain that I
forgot everything for a moment. I went into a state of thoughtlessness. After a
few minutes, I discovered that some white light passed in front of me, though
my eyes were closed. I got a chill and opened my eyes, then I noticed a
matchbox that was kept in front of Saibaba’s idol fell suddenly without being
touched or disturbed by anyone. How could it be even possible? There was no one
in the room except me. The room was closed, and so were the windows. No
movement of wind was there as the room’s ceiling fan was switched off. I got
terrified and slept. Did Saibaba visit me to free me from the loneliness that
night? He could only answer this question. I was amazed at the Leela of
Saibaba.
Experience 2: Saibaba in my dream
It was October 2022; I had an argument with my
husband then. It was in the evening and Pooja was going on in my in-law’s
house. He left the room out of anger. I kept crying and went to my room. I had
intrusive thoughts then. I felt numb and extremely pressurized. I browsed
YouTube for the meditation music of Saibaba and told him about my pain and
anger through meditation. I got instant relief. I had my dinner and then slept.
On Thursday afternoon, while taking a nap I had a dream. In that dream, I saw
my grandfather, whom I had lost twenty years back, was present and was wearing
white coloured clothes just like Saibaba. He started asking me about my
well-being and my in-law’s family to which I answered positively. In the end,
he asked, “Are you okay? Aren’t you hiding anything from me?” Then he started
weeping. I was consoling him in my dream. After that, I came back to the real
world when my husband knocked on the door. Is Saibaba omnipresent? How could he
know my state of mind, at that time?
Experience 3: Saibaba in my mobile as a pic
It was 24 Dec 2022 at midnight, I was in my
lowest state mentally, lost and broken completely. I was going through a series
of failures in my career. There was not a single person who could understand my
pain and console me. Members of my husband’s family were very dominating and
demanding, in all most everything, which made the matter very worst. I took
refuge in Saibaba. I was crying like I was in hell and unable to come out of
the situation. I meditated on one of the music videos of Saibaba. In my prayer,
I expressed my agony to him. Like a father, he would protect me, this was my
expectation. My meditation lasted for half an hour. I prayed to Saibaba to show
his darshan(presence) to me. I repeated this many times. “Show me your
presence, Saibaba”. To my surprise, the electricity went off for a few minutes
at around 12:30 AM, and just then I could feel someone’s hand over my back,
caressing me. I knew that he would never be my husbg75dand because he usually sleeps around 10 PM. I mustered my
courage to look back to find that he was sleeping peacefully without knowing
anything. I was so terrified that I used my blanket to cover my face and slept
silently by chanting his name.
The next day, in the morning, while browning
the gallery I found a few photos clicked from my phone. When I checked the
detail, it was clicked at 1:01 AM. I could also figure out baba’s blurry image
clicked on white background. How could this be even possible? At 1 AM, I slept.
If it gets clicked by mistake from my phone, then how was the flash section of
my mobile on? I have a habit of sleeping by keeping my mobile near my pillow.
It never happened before that photos would be clicked from my phone
automatically. It clearly showed that Saibaba heard my prayer and showed his
presence in form of an image clicked from my phone. It was incredible. I got
emotional and bowed my head on his lotus feet and prayed to him to solve my
problems.
Then I decided to visit Shirdi as I felt that
it was baba’s wish to attract the devotees to his holy land. He can only decide
the date and with whom one can visit the place. I started my journey with my
paternal uncle on 10th Jan 2023. Again note the date, it’s 10.1.2023.
This date contains 10.1 which is exactly the same number on which the photo was
clicked from my mobile. I still think it as a dream comes true.
Bow to Shri Sai — Peace be to all
Sweta Sarangi
21-01-2023
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